to be young

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 12:57:12 GMT

um hi. as you might have noticed (or not) i haven't updated this journal in over a month. it's because ever since i started a german journal, i don't feel like doing so. admittedly, i also did not read my friendslist, and i have no idea how everyone is and what's going on in your lives. i kinda miss you and i feel bad for it, but i just can't bring myself to log in to this journal anymore. i just don't feel like it. i know i'm weird. i know you are all one by one going to unfriend me, it already started, and i can fully understand it, and it's sad to see everything fall apart, but i can't. help. it. maybe i will resume this journal at some point, maybe i won't. i have no idea.

for now, this journal is, until further notice, closed.
:/

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 20:39:47 GMT

nun ja. zwei anmerkungen in eigener sache.

1) der deutschsprachige teil meiner lj-identität zieht um. hierhin: dauerregen. (sorry für den emo-mäßigen emo-namen). lange drüber nachgedacht, jetzt getan. diese sternentochter von vor drei jahren bin ich irgendwie nicht mehr. also ein neuanfang. walk away. move on. blabla. wenn ihr mögt dürft ihr mich gerne gerne ~~bitte!~~ adden. ich habe erst mal niemanden geaddet, weil ich nicht will, dass sich irgendwer verpflichtet fühlt. dies ist also die optimale gelegenheit mich endlich loszuwerden :p natürlich freu ich mich über jeden von euch, den ich drüben wieder sehe. was aus diesem journal wird, weiß ich noch nicht, ganz aufgeben werde ich's wohl nicht.

2) ghvc - die erste und einzige grand hotel van cleef community im livejournal!! und von mir gegründet. also alle schön mitglied werden, ne? :D (und ja, ich weiß meine layouts sehen immer irgendwie gleich aus).

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 08:28:41 GMT

alles alles gute zum geburtstag, samantharichter! viel spaß heute und auf der party am samstag!

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 12:45:22 GMT

blabla, html question. (yes, whenever an exam is getting nearer i just have to play around with my layout). with the generator layout, is there any universal way to make the content table, you know with your entries and stuff, exactly as wide as the header picture, always, no matter which browser or screen resolution or whatever it is viewed in? because whenever i look at my layout at work, it looks shitty and shifted, you know.

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 09:54:43 GMT

alles alles liebe und gute zum geburtstag, endolyn! :)

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 16:50:31 GMT

BEVOR ICH STERBE
Erich Fried

Noch einmal sprechen
von der Wärme des Lebens
damit doch einige wissen:
Es ist nicht warm
aber es könnte warm sein

Bevor ich sterbe
noch einmal sprechen
von Liebe
damit doch einige sagen:
Das gab es
das muß es geben

Noch einmal sprechen
vom Glück der Hoffnung auf Glück
damit doch einige fragen:
Was war das
wann kommt es wieder?

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 17:43:11 GMT

View Poll: #532396

Thu, 26 May 2005 15:52:49 GMT

i've been spending hours* going through my stuff, trying on different skirts and shirts that i could possibly wear on such a summerly day like today, and finally decided for my same old every day jeans and a boring t-shirt.

am loving this song.

*might be a slight bit exaggerated

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 11:32:53 GMT

it's one of these days where everything is just grey. the sun isn't shining, you can't make out any clouds, it's not raining, it's not stormy, the sky is just plain grey and everything seems dead and paralysed and stuck and i think of all weathers i hate this one most. because it's neither good nor bad, it just is. boring. and smothering.

still i hope that it's not going to start raining, because i'm going to work by bike.

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 20:13:50 GMT

so i've grown tired of my 10-year-old miniature camera and i want to buy myself a shiny new digital camera before i spend the money i currently have on other random stuff again, because spending money on something you can actually hold in your hands is nice once in a while. thing is, i don't know shit about cameras. so, do you have any reccomendations for cameras? things i have to pay attention to when buying one? other important stuff i should know?

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 19:07:28 GMT

so i'm just posting to show off my new shiny happy icon and kill more time. i don't know. i decided that bliss is my favourite word of the english language some weeks ago.

View Poll: #471418

i should really go swimming tomorrow morning but i'm afraid that the place will be crowded with children.

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 07:53:19 GMT

omg finglas! it's your birthday!
happy birthday!
♥ ♥ ♥

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 19:47:52 GMT

i'm watching the live covering from rome because ~~i'm bored and don't want to start reading texts for uni~~ i'm so fascinated by it. it's so ancient, so archaic, it feels like i'm reading an historic novel or something, a story from medievial times, and this pope thing exists since hundreds of years and i can't believe it's still such a big deal and all, you know? it's so unrealistic and weird, all those people on the st. peter's square praying the same prayer over and over again and the cardinales or whatever in their robes and well. wow.

edit: haha, lj is being funny. when i was hovering over the update journal button it was jumping around the screen for a moment and then after i clicked it it changed the text to processing whining, heh.

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 20:20:04 GMT

i made these for sternschwester since she has recently discovered that skater boys are indeed as hot as i always told her. mmm skater boys.

also, i just discovered brushes, so i might have gone a bit overboard here. brushes were taken from zusness.com {brush}, check it out!

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 18:51:09 GMT

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 21:10:56 GMT

i spend the weekend at my parents and i was really happy to be able to go home today. how did i ever manage to live there all the time?

so for the last three hours i played around with my layout yet again, and someone, please, help me? i want to hide my user picture in the navigation bar, i mean i can hide everything else, there certainly is a way to hide my user picture as well, right? anyone? before my head explodes?

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 14:29:10 GMT

seriously, who invents all these new ways to open a tetrapack? it gets worse and messier with every new method. the way it used to be, when you just had to rip or cut one side open, that was the best solution there ever was.

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 10:08:00 GMT

i woke up with the headache from hell and i was even feeling a little sick, but it's better now. i hope that are not the first signs of the evil flu that seems to be going around. i'm afraid of getting ill. i cannot get ill now.

so i plan to do a lot of stuff for uni today (but it's always so difficult to get started) and then in the evening i will watch a beautiful mind which i still haven't seen.

i just had a fit of this world is so beautiful, wow.

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 20:38:24 GMT

so i got 4 mb left before i need to start paying for each mb i download. omg should i download lost on thursday or should i wait until it's march? i know what my parents would say. i know what my real life friends would say.

i am a mix taper!

How indie are you? test by ridethefader

You're really enthusiastic about the music that you like. You attempt to discover your new favourite
band every week. You continually try to get your friends into the music you like, which annoys the fuck
out of them, but you don't know it. At least you're not arrogant about it.

me cold.

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 15:41:52 GMT

i had so much motivation this morning and yesterday, it was scary. but don't you worry, it's back to it's normal basement level now.

i bought some nice pair of jeans today. i wanted to spend some more money, but since cd stores in this town obviously suck, i didn't.

hm headache. shall i take painkillers or not?

bright eyes are in cologne tonight and i am not.

more later as i procrastinate along. someone having a good meme or survey or quiz for me?

Fri, 18 Feb 2005 08:59:47 GMT

oh my heart, they are playing arc of time by bright eyes on the radio, i'll only ever listen to our campus radio station from now on <3.

this deserved an update, yes, really. (i mean bright eyes. on the radio. seriously.)

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 03:52:53 GMT

have you ever had someone puke in your car? i have. (ew.)

good night.

Tue, 08 Feb 2005 09:59:04 GMT

Yes, you are destined for celibacy.

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Thu, 03 Feb 2005 18:17:14 GMT

oh great, now the cold is taking over my nose as well. and when i breathe in through my mouth it feels like i've done some exhausting sport, you know? it hurts. well, a little.

i've been rather happy today.

now i'm trying to keep the feeling up.

and i'm trying to make pancakes. expect an depressed update about burnt/inedible/non-pancake-like pancakes in half an hour.

eta: well, they were edible, but tasted more like, um...omelette with a little sugar? non-pancake-like. but they looked good.

Mon, 24 Jan 2005 12:05:14 GMT

yesterday i spent eight hours in front of the internet, with just a little eating, peeing and playing a few chords on the guitar in between. this eventually has to stop, it's not going to take me anywhere. it didn't even make me happy, it's more like i'm glued to the screen and addicted to hitting the refresh button, and i'm unable to detach myself from it. so now i'll work on cutting down on the online time, and structure everything new.

i also defriended a few people. i'm really sorry. take care.

i wanna be me, and live to please me. i'm just sick of swallowing everything until i'm about to choke.